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spirit_shadow
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MDC 3
#849771 - 09/21/21 12:21 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Got my property taxes paid now I'm back home and in trim jail. How is your guys' day going?
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Mmmm sounds good....im having a certified stoner classic..... mac n cheese lol
Edit: and zero sugar skittles drink mix :p
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Edited by spirit_shadow (09/21/21 04:21 PM)
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Just got into heated bullshit argument over phone. Went into rage mode punched some shit I dont even know what by my knuckles is swollen, fuck it.... I really do hate my life. I wish I believed in suicide....and before anyone says "life is worth it or no don't do it" let me say is your entire immidiate family that usually is your blanket in life still alive? Oh they are? Then shut the fuck up and leave me alone.
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla] 1
#849870 - 09/22/21 08:38 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks man, you too <3 it just sucks...
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla]
#849873 - 09/22/21 10:06 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
Niffla said: It really does sometimes. Maybe even a lot of times, depending on the person and situation.
For the longest I've just been...existing. Not living. Time has been going by me at frightening speed. And I just don't feel good anymore. Only time I have a good time anymore is when I'm drinking or tripping. I have crippling insomnia. Constant back pain. I'm perpetually tired and weak. Also I have this ever present black cloud hovering over me -- where I'm always thinking the worst is going to happen to me or those I love. This existential dread that is always present. Like the fucking grim reaper following me or something. There's something seriously wrong with me.
I want to end it all but my luck is so shitty I know for a fact I wouldn't die and I would just be a vegitable.
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Well I punch things now because I am completely alone and I have literally nowhere to put the overflowing emotion. It gets to a point where it HAS to manifest...and it's not an everyday thing. I just lost my shit because I may lose the one person I have left and want to get to. I don't know how much longer I can take being 100% alone.
Edit:I also get crazy sometimes when I stop being on the go all the time because when I stop I think. When I think I hurt. For a split second sometimes I'll think "I should go visit dad." Or "I want to take my brother to the mall" then I realize I can't and it's just too much....people usually at least have one family member left they can lean on. I don't.
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Re: MDC [Re: kreg]
#849908 - 09/23/21 08:07 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks man, it means a lot. I know I'm not alone in my despair and I am 100% with you in the sense that it is fucked up that good people have horrible things happen to them. It's why I don't believe in karma. If I raped or killed someone in cold blood blood sure. But I've never even considered doing an evil act like that before so what the fuck did I do to deserve this shit?
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Re: MDC [Re: kreg] 1
#849912 - 09/23/21 09:22 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I just want to give a big fuck you to the universe. I know that is blasphemy but even so it's how I feel. If it's a test then this is one sadistic fucked up test.
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Re: MDC [Re: Jenny]
#850008 - 09/25/21 04:00 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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So I just finished watching squid game on Netflix and oh man......have any of you guys seen it?
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Squid game is an old Korean playground game. The show is a death game type show but it has a different spin on it and the way the episodes played out was amazing from a directing perspective.
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Re: MDC [Re: kreg]
#850015 - 09/25/21 10:20 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don't have netflix.....my fiance does and just made me an account lol
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Re: MDC [Re: kreg] 1
#850214 - 09/29/21 10:25 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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It's mid day somewhere
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Yes! I got a call from a nice job I applied to and have the interview next Wednesday. Got my clean piss lined out so time for a celebratory smoke session!
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla]
#850230 - 09/29/21 02:55 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Oh wow yeah I watched the sopranos. That movie sounds awesome.
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla] 2
#850587 - 10/06/21 06:43 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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My interview is today, gonna wear my shroomery hoodie to the drug test for good luck
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So I not only got the job, I got a job with the full package etc offered to me, was not expecting that o.o
I just told the hr lady my story and she was like I think I can help you out, let's just skip the temp service bullshit. And then offered me the job. I start next monday
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Re: MDC [Re: Data]
#850622 - 10/07/21 07:55 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thanks man, it's gonna help me out a lot since the start of the pandemic fucked my priorities all to hell...
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At least they have a subway in the the break room
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla]
#850659 - 10/08/21 04:13 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Oh yeah, and for my resume I spent quite some time gathering all the proper info to put into this supposed free resume then it turns out it wasn't free those sneaky bastards.....well 2 can play that game. When it showed the preview of the document I just resized it on my screen and took screenshots and sent those in as my resume to get the job lol
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Re: MDC [Re: Niffla]
#850672 - 10/08/21 06:33 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Those bastards
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