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 Picklez
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 kill myself 
#706871 - 01/13/14 02:02 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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 CrushNazT
Registered: 07/23/13
Posts: 927
Loc: Colorado 
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#706872 - 01/13/14 02:07 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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im thinkin about it right now too...
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iStoner
Astral Beast
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Posts: 7,176
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#706876 - 01/13/14 02:21 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Don't do it.
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT] 1
#706879 - 01/13/14 02:35 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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seems easier some times
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iStoner
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#706880 - 01/13/14 02:37 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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it does, doesn't it.
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: iStoner]
#706882 - 01/13/14 02:39 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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most definitely
i go for sentencing in 6 weeks
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Stoneth
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Loc: No where ville, USA
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#706884 - 01/13/14 02:43 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Six weeks of partying doesn't sound like something to kill oneself over.
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volcomstoner
Just one more xanax
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#706888 - 01/13/14 02:53 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Picklez said:
most definitely
i go for sentencing in 6 weeks
dude, it's no big deal.
It's not the end of the world, you can build back up.
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Thebooedocksaint
Dead Dictator
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#706889 - 01/13/14 03:05 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Picklez said:
most definitely
i go for sentencing in 6 weeks
I'd rather not go "game over." Living through anything not an extremely painful terminal disease is better than not-life.
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P-O
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Posts: 17,891
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#706901 - 01/13/14 04:56 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
iStoner said:
do it.
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CrushNazT said:
im thinkin about it right now too...
Dude you better be trolling  .
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CrushNazT
Registered: 07/23/13
Posts: 927
Loc: Colorado
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what are you lookin at? probation, jail, or DOC?
i got raided in missouri with 2 plants and a VERY small amount of DMT when i was 19 back in 2007. the state wanted me in prison, somehow i got probation, and managed to NOT go to prison during the 5 years i was on. i dont know how i made it through, but i did. i thought about killing myself a lot throughout that. there were a lot of factors to it, including depression, PTSD, and pharmaceuticals i was forced to take. otherwise i had to go to the DOC.
i still cant get a fucking job, because during the time i was on probation, i couldnt get any job except washing dishes, so i was never able to get any REAL work experience. so no one gives a fuck about hiring me now. my head is still really fucked up from that whole experience.
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volcomstoner
Just one more xanax
Registered: 03/30/09
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#706910 - 01/13/14 05:10 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
CrushNazT said:
what are you lookin at? probation, jail, or DOC?
i got raided in missouri with 2 plants and a VERY small amount of DMT when i was 19 back in 2007. the state wanted me in prison, somehow i got probation, and managed to NOT go to prison during the 5 years i was on. i dont know how i made it through, but i did. i thought about killing myself a lot throughout that. there were a lot of factors to it, including depression, PTSD, and pharmaceuticals i was forced to take. otherwise i had to go to the DOC.
i still cant get a fucking job, because during the time i was on probation, i couldnt get any job except washing dishes, so i was never able to get any REAL work experience. so no one gives a fuck about hiring me now. my head is still really fucked up from that whole experience.
man this is spot on for me.
Except when I thought about killing myself it was towards the end of my drug addiction. i didn't actually make an attempt, but it was like, I would do so many drugs and didnt give a shit if I didnt wake up or not
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#706911 - 01/13/14 05:13 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Suicide is not the answer guys, going out in a hail of bullets is the honorable thang to do.
Seriously though, suicide is not even an option, it always seems darkest before the light shines through the bullshit.
If it helps, I have a probation violation court date on the 23rd of this month and I am shitting bricks but what can you do but keep pushing forward.
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bEelzeBosS
Are my eyes red?
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Posts: 706
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#706914 - 01/13/14 05:20 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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If you do it can I have your stuff
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GBurger717
Let me be me! I luv me some me!
Registered: 11/10/12
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Loc: USA, East of Mississippi
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Man I will tell ya life fuckin blows but what does not kill ya makes ya stronger. Pickles I have been where you are at now and I am glad I did not do it. Life is fucked up, life does throw shit in your face but we drag on threw it. My life is fucked up! I am on enough pain meds / benzos that would kill a horse but you know what I keep on dealing with the pain. I hate dealing with the health issues I have and always thought a tail pipe from a car was the best answer but it aint! I do it for the people around me. I keep pushin for the family. People care about you man. You may not think they do but they do.
KEEP YOUR HEAD UP MAN..... it will get better
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When the people fear their government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty - Jefferson
The two enemies of the people are criminals and government, so let us tie the second down with the chains of the Constitution so the second will not become the legalized version of the first. - Jefferson
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Harry_Ba11sach
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707164 - 01/13/14 10:42 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Wait, are you seriously going back to prison soon? What the fuck do you keep doing, dude?
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volcomstoner
Just one more xanax
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Quote:
Harry_Ba11sach said:
Wait, are you seriously going back to prison soon? What the fuck do you keep doing, dude?
IIRC he hasn't had sentencing for his last case
but has already served some time for it.
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Picklez
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Quote:
volcomstoner said:
Quote:
Harry_Ba11sach said:
Wait, are you seriously going back to prison soon? What the fuck do you keep doing, dude?
IIRC he hasn't had sentencing for his last case
but has already served some time for it.
This.
I have 6 months in on my old case
Might not get any additional time, but could get up to another year
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RasJeph
Psycho Pete
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707197 - 01/14/14 08:01 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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When I wake up early in the morning I kinda feel like killing myself sometimes. I dunno what it is. I think its something about my brain not being fully ready yet, but I get pretty serious suicidal thoughts until I stand up and get dressed. Then I'm happy as fuck. Such a bizarre thing. 
But nah, don't off yourself. Focus your energy into not fucking up anymore. Difficult, yea, but a better use of your time.
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Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: RasJeph]
#707202 - 01/14/14 08:52 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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this wasnt a serious thread really. I dont have suicidal thoughts. just very apathetic about life right now
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707204 - 01/14/14 09:02 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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CrushNazT
Registered: 07/23/13
Posts: 927
Loc: Colorado
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Re: kill myself [Re: RasJeph]
#707207 - 01/14/14 09:48 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
RasJeph said:
When I wake up early in the morning I kinda feel like killing myself sometimes. I dunno what it is. I think its something about my brain not being fully ready yet, but I get pretty serious suicidal thoughts until I stand up and get dressed. Then I'm happy as fuck. Such a bizarre thing.
But nah, don't off yourself. Focus your energy into not fucking up anymore. Difficult, yea, but a better use of your time.
i feel like that almost everyday... kinda strange. and it sucks.
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#707213 - 01/14/14 10:04 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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You guys need some women in your lives that or happy drugs.
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#707214 - 01/14/14 10:06 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Sham87 said:
You guys need some women in your lives
Psh, she makes matters worse sometimes 
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CrushNazT
Registered: 07/23/13
Posts: 927
Loc: Colorado
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707216 - 01/14/14 10:11 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Picklez said:
Quote:
Sham87 said:
You guys need some women in your lives
Psh, she makes matters worse sometimes
i really do need to get laid. its been well over a year now.. i start school next week so hopefuly i meet some cool stoner chicks.
but, i also agree with pickelz...
such a shitty line to try to walk.
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mjmihalov
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707229 - 01/14/14 11:12 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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I would never kill myself over fear of jail, especially not short time.
But if I was going away to prison for a long time I'm having a shootout for sure.
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: mjmihalov]
#707232 - 01/14/14 11:43 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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This thread is making me 
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volcomstoner
Just one more xanax
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#707235 - 01/14/14 11:58 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Sham87 said:
You guys need some women in your lives that or happy drugs.
QFT
Don't worry, be happy.
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707239 - 01/14/14 12:26 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Got an interview with a temp agency tomorrow. Hopefully they can help me find some work
Got quite a bit done today around the house. I think the lady will be happy when she gets home.
Might even cook dinner tonight, nah but I thought about it at least
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P-O
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707240 - 01/14/14 12:29 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Picklez ; Mr. Mom of the year 2014
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: P-O] 1
#707242 - 01/14/14 12:39 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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I might just become a stay at home mom
Nah, I hate being at home. I am ready to be working again. Doing man stuff. This interwebs all day is boring as shit. There arent enough games to keep me busy
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RasJeph
Psycho Pete
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Re: kill myself [Re: CrushNazT]
#707250 - 01/14/14 01:24 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
CrushNazT said:
Quote:
RasJeph said:
When I wake up early in the morning I kinda feel like killing myself sometimes. I dunno what it is. I think its something about my brain not being fully ready yet, but I get pretty serious suicidal thoughts until I stand up and get dressed. Then I'm happy as fuck. Such a bizarre thing.
But nah, don't off yourself. Focus your energy into not fucking up anymore. Difficult, yea, but a better use of your time.
i feel like that almost everyday... kinda strange. and it sucks.
Its literally only like a 30 minute thing for me, and only once or twice a month. I dunno, I can't explain it. I'm perfectly content 99.9% of the time, but sometimes upon waking up I get this overwhelming feeling of "fuck it"
It never lasts so I don't care, but I think about it sometimes and it confuses me.
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iStoner
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#707361 - 01/14/14 05:27 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Sham87 said:
You guys need some women in your lives that or happy drugs.
i could use a bit more of each.
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: iStoner]
#707371 - 01/14/14 06:07 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Don't we all...
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volcomstoner
Just one more xanax
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#707376 - 01/14/14 06:18 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Sham87 said:
Don't we all...
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Picklez
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I have 8 1/2 months clean 
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707773 - 01/16/14 09:45 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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time to head out to this temp agency and see if they can get me a motherfucking job
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UltimateDevotion 
TwistedByDesign
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707774 - 01/16/14 09:50 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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What happened to your last job?
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Sham87
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Re: kill myself [Re: Picklez]
#707778 - 01/16/14 09:55 AM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Goodluck man
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Picklez
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Re: kill myself [Re: Sham87]
#707899 - 01/16/14 04:03 PM (11 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
UltimateDevotion said:
What happened to your last job?
Got laid off
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Sham87 said:
Goodluck man
Thanks, I got to call every week and let them know I am still looking for work, hopefully it doesnt take them more than a couple weeks to find me something. Going to pay to get a background check done too, I dont know if my felony is going to show up or not. If it doesnt, that definitely opens up more possibilities for me
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