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Picklez
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forever junkie
#633105 - 07/29/12 01:04 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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Got to be about my 250th time trying to quit. I recently had my longest. Period cleaan in 4 years but have been fucking up bad these past couple of months. Just crossed the 48 hour mark.. could be worse but this shit sucks. I hope this time is for good, made it over 5 months last time.
Wish i had something to smoke. Been doing nothing but sitting in the tub
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633106 - 07/29/12 02:55 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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Been thinking about dosing a couple grams of mushrooms but dont know if that'll do more harm than any good
Plus i dont know if my body can go another day without sleep
58-60 hours since last hits
50 hours of clean time. Approx.
More sitting in the bath tub posting on the internets, keeping myself hydrated, taken some good shits, and been reading. Hopefully the physical parts are over by tuesday night
Need to go to CVS and get some more fluids and vitamins though
Boredddddom
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633107 - 07/29/12 04:03 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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got me some coffee and some vitamin water
hoping this coffee helps clear me out a bit
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez] 3
#633108 - 07/29/12 05:37 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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dont take shrooms, that will be awful
-------------------- niteowl said:
See, that term pedo gets thrown around a lot.
Is a 16 year old guy having sex w/a 16 year old girl a pedophile?
If not, then how is a 30 year old considered a pedophile for doing the same thing?
I think y'all need to look up the definition for pedophile.
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Picklez
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Yeah ill save that for a couple days down the road as a bit of mental therapy.
Im surprissed i havent thrown up... yet.
Been in the shower literally eevery 3-4 hours and downed 7 bottles of drink the last 2 days.
I know no one cares but im bored and posting here is at least keeping me busy
That and the book the ive about finished.
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633110 - 07/29/12 06:01 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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In all reality this is the softest wd's ive ever had, but they still blow ass.
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633111 - 07/29/12 06:09 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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what's a wd?
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Debute23]
#633112 - 07/29/12 06:17 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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Junky slang for withdrawals
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633113 - 07/29/12 06:34 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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mental therapy?
vitamin water?
dopesick without weed?
Rapey?
Terrarape?
I say just eat the mushrooms and have an awesome day xD
Lifes hillariously weird sometimes
ima forever junkie too yknow.
shrooms are good
always good
shrooms are good.
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633114 - 07/29/12 06:36 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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count all the stars that are not there
THIS IS NOT A STAIRCASE WITH STARS BENETH IT, IT HAS GROWN TO BE ALIKE CUPCAKES
9/11
NEVER FORGET how many busniess tried flying that day
Space babeh
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633115 - 07/29/12 06:37 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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and now comes the saddest moment of forever
have a great dato!
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633116 - 07/29/12 06:37 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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welcome back from your 24 hour ban
ima go get some spice to smoke here in a couple hours, that will at least keep me busy
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633117 - 07/29/12 06:43 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thank you, I ended up not remembering wat I did o.o
felt bluesey
spice sounds nice.. smoking my last half gram of hash, gonna drink a bottle of wine and just lie in wait for those mushrooms to come save my life and take me to anotherworld cause this shits gettin too weird
wiered
wierd...
scary n happy to say the least
woof.
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633118 - 07/29/12 06:48 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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You tripping here soon?
Have fun man, positive vibes your way
Spice sucks but the action of having SOMETHING to smoke, has helped the first couple days..
On my 4th cup of coffee, shit taste soo bomb, I am going to be paying for it through the asshole here soon. Quite literally.
3 more hours til smoke shop even opens
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633120 - 07/29/12 06:57 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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meh, ill go to the parents place and fetch some coffee too later tonight, maybe try to get some cash from grandma, most likely :b
But yeah ima be eating that 10g heroic dose soon
I really need to blow my and everyone elses minds wide open soon or im literally fucked and will never be happy in this mess
So im counting on the mushrooms and my long term damaged soul to repair EVERYTHING and then have some darned fun
and heres a song I think ud find nice
eat lemons, lol
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633121 - 07/29/12 06:58 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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I feel undead at times lol
real torn up lol
then I laugh
suddenly missed you
didnt remember much .________.
now I wish I had more drugs as every other happy day
wondering where to go or what to remember
this is almost funny
Abormality I call!
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633122 - 07/29/12 06:59 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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I waz talking to u pizkles ;<
and mah torn pair of shoes
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633123 - 07/29/12 07:04 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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not my kind of music
10g? nice, most I have done is 8g and I ended up getting waken up by my gf, passed out naked on the bathroom floor. I found the whole trip to be quite overwhelming on the body. Like no matter what I was doing, it wasnt enough to occupy my mind, but I couldnt "handle," doing much of anything. I ended up spending the later part of my trip in bed with her, watching Sportscenter to try and ground myself.
I will stick to 4g or less from now on.
Regardless, you have a good one. You seem like you need it
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez] 1
#633124 - 07/29/12 07:09 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why do you keep doing this to yourself? Either man up and stay clean or die a filthy junkie. You were granted a second chance with your education. This is go time. This time will define the rest of your life. Keep your head down and eye on the prize. Let the future, the one you want, be the force that pulls you through the bad and gives you strength. I recently went through something somewhat similar regarding education and lifestyle choice. I am going back to school with a full science course load come sept 4th. Its not what I want now, but its where I want to be later, and thats what matters.
-------------------- King Koopa said:
The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633125 - 07/29/12 07:11 AM (12 years, 4 months ago) |
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guess its abit too.... dirt? for you, im just a stupid hippy anyways :b peace n love dude, good shit eneays. n the bathroom floor naked sounds hillarious though D: and being so stoned you cant really move sounds beautiful :> And lying o
A funny thing to do : D and yeah the whole 10g, I really just wanna.... well destroy this infinite hurt molecule to expand only positive energy, I know its doable : )
Will most likely bring me to my jungle queen too
rawr :>
Someday well all eat like... 50 grams of hawaiians or something!
thatll be a feisty day if wee add ayahuasca and smokeable dmt too xD
a day to say the least, I see it commming! xD
I miss my jungle queen ._. mustve been nice to have a girl around you on that amount of mushrooms
If I were to ground myself id watch some documentary about calm landscapes or just simple music andor meditation
all seems to kinda work great on me
always liked watching fear and loathing....
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