|
 ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
 for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? 
#611811 - 03/06/12 06:08 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
hey,
okay,
so my parents gave me this ultimatim... move out and keep doing drugs, or stay clean, do NA, be comitted to being clean... forever. I chose drugs as im just not ready to give up the bone yet. Im scared. my job isnt sufficient to sustain me on my own, even with a roomate. currently im living out of a weekly, actually pretty nice, but too expensive.
what the hell do i do? Sure, I can have fun, party, do whatever, cept for working, but i mean what the hell am i doing?
im going off to school in august, and need to be clean 3 months before i can go back home... i guess i have a couple months, but really, why am i doing this? im missing out on a comfotable, worry-free life where bills are paid, foods made, nice people around, etc. im worried i made the wrong decision. i dont think i can go back cuz of the whole 3 month clean thing... ugh what did i do!!
okay, /rant
--------------------
|
RasJeph
Psycho Pete
Registered: 01/14/09
Posts: 11,657
Loc: Bumfuckt Egypt
Last seen: 1 year, 7 days
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl] 1
#611814 - 03/06/12 06:10 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
You need a good buddy to kick your ass maybe.
--------------------
Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: RasJeph]
#611817 - 03/06/12 06:12 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
thatd help...
wanna do the honors?
...wait, youre too far away arent you?
--------------------
|
RasJeph
Psycho Pete
Registered: 01/14/09
Posts: 11,657
Loc: Bumfuckt Egypt
Last seen: 1 year, 7 days
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611819 - 03/06/12 06:14 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Unfortunately
--------------------
Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
|
King Koopa
Natty
Registered: 06/25/08
Posts: 12,819
Last seen: 19 days, 9 hours
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611821 - 03/06/12 06:14 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Choose the path that would lead you in a place you want to be, or the path that'll get you where you want to go most sufficiently.
If you're living for the moment, then fuck it!!!
--------------------
Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism.
The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for A.A. membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. A.A. is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
|
 Hawksresurrection
Registered: 12/04/08
Posts: 13,464
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611824 - 03/06/12 06:16 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Well what kind of drugs are you doing?? Shooting up??
--------------------
Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: King Koopa]
#611826 - 03/06/12 06:17 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
i guess i chose the moment...
my feelings say fuck the future bc i dont think i have one... but thats another story...
i should have chose the other option, but then again i wouldnt be happy, id feel like i missed out on something, and forever crave that "last hit"
atleast this way i can choose on my own when i need to draw the line vs someone else drawing it for me...
--------------------
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: Hawksresurrection]
#611827 - 03/06/12 06:18 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
coke mostly, and shooting sometimes...
never again for the heroin, and sometimes smoking the meff, and when i can the weedz.
--------------------
|
kyuzo
Stranger Than Fiction
Registered: 07/05/10
Posts: 981
Last seen: 11 years, 10 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611828 - 03/06/12 06:20 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Quote:
ShroomieGirl said:
coke mostly, and shooting sometimes...
never again for the heroin, and sometimes smoking the meff, and when i can the weedz.
sounds awesome...
|
King Koopa
Natty
Registered: 06/25/08
Posts: 12,819
Last seen: 19 days, 9 hours
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611829 - 03/06/12 06:20 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Win. We should hang out sometime.
--------------------
Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism.
The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for A.A. membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. A.A. is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
|
Hawksresurrection
Registered: 12/04/08
Posts: 13,464
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl] 1
#611830 - 03/06/12 06:20 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Sounds like you should have taken the other route. Trust me, you wouldn't be missing out on anything. Sounds like you may need some rehab.
--------------------
Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
|
still beLIEve
State Property..Again
Registered: 04/20/08
Posts: 17,167
Loc: a world thats not my own
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: Hawksresurrection] 4
#611831 - 03/06/12 06:20 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
um go live with the parents for sure.
silly question
get your parents trust, go out and have fun responsibly. if you are doing well your parents wont think anything of it.
also, show us your titties.
--------------------
niteowl said:
See, that term pedo gets thrown around a lot.
Is a 16 year old guy having sex w/a 16 year old girl a pedophile?
If not, then how is a 30 year old considered a pedophile for doing the same thing?
I think y'all need to look up the definition for pedophile.
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: still beLIEve]
#611834 - 03/06/12 06:23 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
yea, the other woulda been better, but here i am in the shit i put myself in...
and yea, ive gotten into the harder stuff now thanks to an ex who introduced me to the h, and that opened doors to everything else, in my mind. now im am everything head...
--------------------
|
Hawksresurrection
Registered: 12/04/08
Posts: 13,464
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611835 - 03/06/12 06:25 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Well I would bet that if you approached your parents about wanting to get sober they would be WAY more than happy to help. you just need to be ready yourself to get clean.
--------------------
Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
|
kyuzo
Stranger Than Fiction
Registered: 07/05/10
Posts: 981
Last seen: 11 years, 10 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611836 - 03/06/12 06:26 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Quote:
ShroomieGirl said:
i guess i chose the moment...
my feelings say fuck the future bc i dont think i have one... but thats another story...
i should have chose the other option, but then again i wouldnt be happy, id feel like i missed out on something, and forever crave that "last hit"
atleast this way i can choose on my own when i need to draw the line vs someone else drawing it for me...
don't know you, but this thread gives me the impression that you're the average silver spoon junky. maybe a crash course in hardship would do you some good and give you a new perspective on things
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: Hawksresurrection]
#611837 - 03/06/12 06:27 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
they told me theres no more help from them... they pu me thru detiox 2x and i thanked them by going back out.. but maybe, just maybe, if i look pathetic and am sincere, theyll take me back...
...or tell me to stfu and gtfo till im 3 mo out...
hard to say with them
--------------------
|
RasJeph
Psycho Pete
Registered: 01/14/09
Posts: 11,657
Loc: Bumfuckt Egypt
Last seen: 1 year, 7 days
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: ShroomieGirl]
#611840 - 03/06/12 06:33 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Well you can't blame them for not trying.
Nobody is gonna help you besides yourself. Hopefully that happens before you hit rock bottom or die.
Any of us can sit here and preach to you all night long, but none of it adds up to anything if you can't take it to heart and listen to it.
--------------------
Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
|
P-O
Registered: 10/08/11
Posts: 17,891
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: still beLIEve] 2
#611841 - 03/06/12 06:36 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
Quote:
still beLIEve said:
also, show us your titties.
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: RasJeph]
#611842 - 03/06/12 06:42 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
true true
ill listen soon.. i can feel it coming. i can feel the end of my hardcore drug scene coming. it cant go on forever, and i need to draw a line. not yet tho, as always, just not yet. ive never been able to say the end is near before. this is a new development, but i see what its doing to me and my family and its hard on me (and the family). i cant do this forever, unless i die doing it, then i guess ill forever be high. im not trying to OD anymore tho, those times are long behind me. i cant do that to my mom, ive learned how selfish that is/was.
...rambling!!
ill shut up now... 
--------------------
|
ShroomieGirl
Fear and Loathing
Registered: 08/09/08
Posts: 595
Loc: TX
Last seen: 12 years, 5 months
|
Re: for those of you who remember me... kinda... maybe? [Re: P-O]
#611843 - 03/06/12 06:43 PM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
|
|
no camera... = (
left that at my parents house...
--------------------
|
|
Threaded
Previous
Index
Next
Shop: 
Edit 
Reply 
