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iStoner
Astral Beast
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Posts: 7,176
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miss me
#805108 - 02/02/16 12:46 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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10mg Etiz ambien 5 Sierra Nevada torpedo
Okay how are you
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P-O
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805125 - 02/02/16 08:00 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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I thought u quit benzos after all bs u went though/jail
Ur tolerance must be huge if ur poppin 10 at a time
Edited by P-O (02/02/16 08:09 AM)
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iStoner
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Re: miss me [Re: P-O]
#805152 - 02/02/16 02:00 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Road to sobriety is hard
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drawde
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805153 - 02/02/16 02:07 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Disappointed bud, disappointed. I still love yea.
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The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Stoneth
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Loc: No where ville, USA
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805161 - 02/02/16 05:56 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
iStoner said: Road to sobriety is hard
It's only as hard as you make it.
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poor boy
Village Idiot
Registered: 06/07/13
Posts: 16,230
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Re: miss me [Re: Stoneth]
#805165 - 02/02/16 06:28 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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No, stoneth. This is trash.
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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King Koopa
Natty
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Re: miss me [Re: Stoneth]
#805178 - 02/02/16 08:11 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Stoneth said: It's only as hard as you make it.
Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. There are such unfortunates. They are not at fault; they seem to have been born that way. They are naturally incapable of grasping and developing a manner of living which demands rigorous honesty. Their chances are less than average. There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest.
Our stories disclose in a general way what we used to be like, what happened, and what we are like now. If you have decided you want what we have and are willing to go to any length to get it — then you are ready to take certain steps.
At some of these we balked. thought we could find an easier, softer way. But we could not. With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start. Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely.
Remember that we deal with alcohol — cunning, baffling, powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power — that One is God. May you find Him now!
Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point. we asked His protection and care with complete abandon.
Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program of recovery:
1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol — that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.
Our description of the alcoholic, the chapter to the agnostic, and our personal adventure before and after make clear three pertinent ideas:
a) That we were alcoholic and could not manage our own lives.
b) That probably no human power could have relieved our alcoholism.
c) That God could and would if He were sought.
-------------------- Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism.
The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for A.A. membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. A.A. is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
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RasJeph
Psycho Pete
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Posts: 11,657
Loc: Bumfuckt Egypt
Last seen: 1 year, 26 days
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805203 - 02/03/16 09:32 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't know fuck all about benzos, but are you abusing ambien? Dude holy fuck that shit is the only time in my life I ever hit rock bottom. I feel for you if that's what you're taking.
-------------------- Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
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poor boy
Village Idiot
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Posts: 16,230
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Re: miss me [Re: RasJeph]
#805208 - 02/03/16 10:23 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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RasJeph
Psycho Pete
Registered: 01/14/09
Posts: 11,657
Loc: Bumfuckt Egypt
Last seen: 1 year, 26 days
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Re: miss me [Re: poor boy]
#805359 - 02/05/16 12:22 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
highasfuck said: Theres a bear beside me jacking off. i think somethin is groupin me. o shit i cant explain, people all in my face and walking on my desk tyhere mall thougj pointling grabing stairing walking to me,.wiht gys finger right next to me. were floating,in my desk.with all of theres people they keep touching me so vivid, no emotion. scary facesbit my neck, they keep poining qt my face, thres. trippen hard balls. everyone is around. ugly mother fucker.s cloown
That sounds about right. The day I was saying I hit rock bottom my bud was carrying around a tissue box saying he was making an invention and gathering supplies. We dumped it out and it was just full of fucking marbles.
That shit is interesting as fuck to watch, but I'd never ever in my life even wanna be near a pill of that shit.
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Why should that mean it isn't real?
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iStoner
Astral Beast
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Posts: 7,176
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Re: miss me [Re: RasJeph]
#805570 - 02/08/16 04:40 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Not abusing either ambien nor benzos right now, I just wanted to sleep.
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poor boy
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805578 - 02/08/16 07:03 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thats how it starts
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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thoughts
Stranger
Registered: 01/11/15
Posts: 1,231
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805580 - 02/08/16 08:06 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Wutup gangsta how you been?
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poor boy
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Posts: 16,230
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Re: miss me [Re: thoughts]
#805581 - 02/08/16 08:18 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Im great! Thanks for asking.
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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thoughts
Stranger
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Posts: 1,231
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Re: miss me [Re: poor boy]
#805583 - 02/08/16 08:46 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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No.
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poor boy
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Re: miss me [Re: thoughts]
#805586 - 02/08/16 09:03 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Good to hear, man. Good to hear.
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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poor boy
Village Idiot
Registered: 06/07/13
Posts: 16,230
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Re: miss me [Re: poor boy]
#805587 - 02/08/16 09:05 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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I really have to pee pee though.
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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iStoner
Astral Beast
Registered: 06/09/10
Posts: 7,176
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Re: miss me [Re: thoughts]
#805697 - 02/09/16 08:35 PM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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thoughts said: Wutup gangsta how you been?
Been all right, life could be better
How about you man? Been a while
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poor boy
Village Idiot
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Posts: 16,230
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805724 - 02/10/16 06:12 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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He was talking to me
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Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect nor do I strive to be, I am alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard through the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race, or color, a hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers, and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better
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thoughts
Stranger
Registered: 01/11/15
Posts: 1,231
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Re: miss me [Re: iStoner]
#805726 - 02/10/16 06:18 AM (8 years, 9 months ago) |
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Life's been pretty good man, been working on myself lately. It helps to focus on the things that make you happy and drop any negative things.
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