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Harry_Ba11sach said:
So you were begging and pleading with God and promised to never do it again, he held up his end of the bargain and you're going to just turn around and do it again?

Obviously you learned nothing.

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hawksapprentice said:
I at the black light poster...

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You are now but you don't know how amazing that poster is.

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FRACTALife said:

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Harry_Ba11sach said:
So you were begging and pleading with God and promised to never do it again, he held up his end of the bargain and you're going to just turn around and do it again?

Obviously you learned nothing.

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I am a spiritual person but I don't believe in God and I don't pray, but I was very desperate in that moment.

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Harry_Ba11sach said:



I guess all I'm getting at is this; who's to say that was actually GOD that saved you? You prayed to a diety, and then mention immediately feeling a connection with beings of unknown existence and origin. Maybe they who connected with you are also they who are responsible for your safety. I think you should do whatever you want, but it's interesting that you're so willing to renig on a contract like that, even after meeting the beings in person. Seems to me like perhaps asking for trouble.

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It was on my second, much less intense trip, before the scary one that I contacted with that beautiful healing, esoteric, mother of the universe type creature.

It was during my last trip that I was panicking and I asked "god" to let me live. When I did it I knew it was a shallow thing to do and that it wasn't my place yet to stop using psychedelics and while it did bring me a little bit of relief to think maybe God was up in Heaven and was was saving me, I never felt any connection from any DMT-esque Gods that had soothed me in my previous trips, and I didn't really think I was asking them in that moment- rather the fictional God that I wondered about and prayed to as a little kid.

Asking "God" was one of many things I did to try and calm down, I also tried- meditating, laying down in a few different positions, closing/opening my eyes. Every time I did I closed my eyes there an amazing psychedelic expanse before my eyes. I did enjoy a lot of the trip, but it blew me away.



Part of the reason the last trip was so intense was because I vaporized it properly and it was bigger than the other bowls. Before I was mixing my DMT with bud and it was burning up. But when i mixed it with the kief it vaporized so smoothly. I probably put on more DMT than I needed, as I wasn't wasting any up in burning it now. I got it all in in one toke so it was the most hit of DMT I probably have ever taken.


If I had been prepared for this and was better able to relax I probably would have gone somewhere else with the trip and then one of the self transforming machine elves maybe would have came out and helped me through.


Cheers.

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still beLIEve said:
it might be a solid plan to give it some time before doing it again. DMT has a way of lashing out if you disrespect it. I would consider doing it three mornings in a row not respecting it.

I love the shit outta some DMT, but i usually only do it once every 2-3 months when i get a feeling/calling to do so.

I used to smoke it on a whim, and it didn't treat me well.

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Hey man!

I will definitely give it some downtime if you think it is a good idea.

As you know I still am taking adderall during the day so that's why I enjoyed having some  DMT sessions in the morning and then being able to take the adderall after I've come down and move on with my day. I always take the same dose of Adderall and I'm just still taking it because I haven't taken the time to get off of it yet. But I've been on it so long it doesn't have much of an effect, it's just my normal body chemistry. After taking my Adderall I knew I wouldn't use DMT more throughout the rest of the day, but I'd be able to reflect on it and try again in the morning.

I was playing with the chemical the last few morning and getting familiar with it and finding the best way to use it. I feel like today I found the most efficient way of using it. I was excited to possibly using a smaller amount (than my last bowl) in this new efficient method tomorrow morning and exploring space one more time before taking a break for a few days-few weeks.

I will think on it and see how I feel in the morning, but I probably will take your (and possibly DMT's) opinion and take a break for a few days.

I think what is more important to respecting the chemical is not keeping going back into hyperspace after my first trip of the morning. It's obvious to me now the reason for doing this was because I wasn't 100% satisfied because I hadn't found the most efficient way of vaporizing it. It feels good now that I have.

It also feels really good knowing this amazing realm DMT opens up to and knowing I have a lot of the chemical left to do future exploration and growing.