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 Hawksresurrection
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#609098 - 02/11/12 09:06 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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So this is gonna be a downer of a post......But my best friend hung himself last night.
Not really sure as how to deal with this shit.......................
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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Stoneth
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Loc: No where ville, USA 
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Damn dude sorry to hear that.
I'm sending good vibes your way.
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: Stoneth]
#609100 - 02/11/12 09:44 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks man. I learned to snowboard with this guy. Went backpacking, and hiking and hot springing with him. Life wont be the same with out him.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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P-O
Registered: 10/08/11
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sorry bout ur loss...
ive lost a few friends over the years.
avoid drinking hard or tripping hard for a bit
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: P-O]
#609115 - 02/11/12 10:38 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Oh no tripping will be in my near future for sure. Had a couple of beers tonight. Don't really feel like drinking hard.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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 CosmicFool
Psychoholic
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that's rough
death is always hard but much more so when the do it themselves
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: CosmicFool]
#609120 - 02/12/12 12:32 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Esp. at the age of 30. So young and intelligent and creative. Working on his masters in mathematics. Finishing up his thesis when this happened. Such a fucking waste.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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P-O
Registered: 10/08/11
Posts: 17,891
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one of my friends died from high doses of oxy + mdma .... i dosed 5 grams of mush with 3 friends in a hotel room a few days later. long story short one friend wigged it, went missing half naked (-33 outside), me and my mom found him and had to bring him to hospital, i thought i killed him. worse trip ever,,,,
sorry to derail. i felt like sharing
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: P-O]
#609130 - 02/12/12 02:02 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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That wasn't derailing man.
I think the reason behind me creating this thread was to A. Get some grief out, B. Allow other people to share their experiences with dealing with these types of emotions.
All stories and discussion is welcomed VERY much. I;ve only known what happened for about 10 hours now. So it's super fresh at the moment. So share away people.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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P-O
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The girl that died was a close friend who i was supose to see the weekend she died. Her Drug dealer bf let her od on oxys, then when she was nodding and shit he gave her a massive dose of mdma to "wake her up", when she start convulsing he was too scared to call an ambulance, so he waited till his friends came to clean his place, before he called them. she woulda lived if he didn't panic, and wait 30 mins for her to die 
first time i met him (day of the funeral) he told me that, said hes sooo sorry, and gave me a huge bag of mush for free... so me and friends dosed high the next night. the bad trip started before it started we were tripping and it got worse and worse.
I thought alot of death that night so maybe it helped a lil when wasnt worring about the other friend .
has your friend been depressed for a while?
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P-O
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Re: ...................... [Re: P-O]
#609133 - 02/12/12 02:17 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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last summer my close friend found his dad hanging in the garage. But he has been very depressed for years.
2 weeks later me and 5 friends went camping. Acid was pulled out and we all dosed 1.5. The one friend kept bugging me for more and more... and within a hour he was on 3.5 hits.
soon as he was peaking head he went and layed in his tent. he stayed there alll night alone (we checked on hin few times),
The next day he said he talked to his father in spirit and said it was the most amazing thing he has ever experience. he made his peace with his dad. and said was givin advice. I was scared he was havin a bad trip the whole time, but he seemed to have a good experience.
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: P-O]
#609135 - 02/12/12 02:18 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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He had always been a pessimistic guy, like me. A lot of heavy drinking in the last 8 months. Which I had tried to talk to him about, me alone and me and his mom. But he wouldn't listen. But i never thought he was coming to this point.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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Acidic_Sloth
Acidic poly-Sided Di-slothamide
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that is probably me in the next year if things don't start looking up, but it's been building for a while. i'm most likely just drunk though.
i'm sorry for your loss, hon. suicide is never an answer.
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eNtranceAsexit
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Re: ...................... [Re: Acidic_Sloth]
#609138 - 02/12/12 03:30 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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yet, you just gave yourself the ultimatum.
so many lost lives recently, between just the proximity of people in this greater shroomery/growery community, it's starting to worry me.
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RasJeph
Psycho Pete
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Awww, that sucks bro.  I hope you can figure out some way to deal with it in a healthy way
All things considered, maybe try to understand the mental anguish he must have been going through at the time. Although its never the best solution, its generally not a snap decision people make over night. No more unhappiness now...and I feel like thats probably a good way to look at it. Try to understand that something must have driven him to that point, and when you can put yourself in his shoes, it'll be a lot easier to deal with I'd think.
Easier said than done, I'm sure, but its just what came to mind.
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Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
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still beLIEve
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Re: ...................... [Re: RasJeph]
#609155 - 02/12/12 08:38 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't have any experiences like that, thank god. So I have no advice based on what I've been through.
But like ras said - try to find a way to deal with it healthy. I find writing in a journal about traumatic experiences helps me. Not worrying about franker or spelling and just pouring my raw emotions out until there's nothing left inside of me.
My heart goes out to you my friend.
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niteowl said:
See, that term pedo gets thrown around a lot.
Is a 16 year old guy having sex w/a 16 year old girl a pedophile?
If not, then how is a 30 year old considered a pedophile for doing the same thing?
I think y'all need to look up the definition for pedophile.
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Nothing Is
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I had a close friend who took himself out the same way. Besides the loss, I think the thing that made me so sad was that he was so convinced this world wasn't worth living in. I felt like there must be merit in how he felt since he was so inspired to such action. I didn't see it as an indictment just against his own existence but through the commonality of man it seemed to scream out against all human existence or even all life in general. But over time after I continued to have good times and bad I started to realize that although life can be burdensome, it's mostly a precious gift. I also take solace in that even though it's sad that he felt it had to end that way, at least he went out on his own terms. Since death is forced on all of us, maybe those who come to really want it are lucky in a way.
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FRACTALife
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really sorry to hear that
nothing really to say except for at least he's at peace now
death sucks but it'll get better so try to keep your chin up.
all things must pass 
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Hawksresurrection
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Re: ...................... [Re: FRACTALife]
#609174 - 02/12/12 01:10 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks for all the advice and well wishes everyone. I'm headed over to his parents house today to gather with his family.
I still expect him to be here in all honesty. Hard to come to grips that I'll never get another powder run with him. Or catch a fish on a backpacking trip and cook it up over the campfire. So many memories that will never be made. At least I have a lot to remember.
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Dude she isn't as young as she use to be.
-niteowl
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King Koopa
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Re: ...................... [Re: P-O]
#609175 - 02/12/12 01:41 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
PositiveOutlook said:
The girl that died was a close friend who i was supose to see the weekend she died. Her Drug dealer bf let her od on oxys, then when she was nodding and shit he gave her a massive dose of mdma to "wake her up", when she start convulsing he was too scared to call an ambulance, so he waited till his friends came to clean his place, before he called them. she woulda lived if he didn't panic, and wait 30 mins for her to die
UGH!!!
Thanks for the fucked story, asshole. 
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