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 Lucid
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 Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making....  [Re: Lucid]
#479477 - 09/19/10 09:51 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Alright...shitty night sleeping, but I DO feel better today. Take that Opiate addiction!
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Picklez
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#479482 - 09/19/10 10:07 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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I feel like complete shit today, I am a couple days behind you.
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Picklez]
#479492 - 09/19/10 10:22 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Ya I had that really shit day a few days ago, so your almost though it man. Just gota get the fuck out and walk around and just do anything. I forced myself to work on my car in the cold, while i could barely keep my body standing. But it really kept my mind off it, and today. I'm feeling pretty good. Your almost there man, If I can fucking do this. YOU CAN DO THIS. Just gota get use to NEVER AGAIN 
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#479879 - 09/20/10 07:34 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Feeling better daily, though I did wake up with some PAWS today (post acute withdrawl syndrome) but A nice hot shower seemed to relax it all away. I freaking love water, guess it doesn't hurt I'm Aquarius either. lalalalalal ok time to get epic amount of stonededness. yes stondedness.
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#479883 - 09/20/10 08:26 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Went back to sleep eh?
I think I'm getting sick man, I woke up with a sore ass throat. Fucking mexican cigs 
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Inverted]
#480112 - 09/20/10 08:34 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Well people, I think I got this shit in the bag. its day 11, I'm getting my energy back and sleeping is coming easier. to everybody out there who is looking to get clean. IT IS POSSIBLE. And you have no idea what you have lost, Opiates numb EVERY PART OF YOU. I got 5 years of emotions in a massive flood at once. It actually does feel good to be sober! I CAN FEEL AGAIN! The fact that music sounds 1000x better is reason enough to quit! I think SO clearly now. Its a bit much to take in, as you start thinking about the entire time you were using and all that you did. you have to process it because you never did! The entire process is by no means a cake walk, but we did this to ourselves. For all that pleasure we felt, we have to give some pain.
But its not an impossible task, I was never more scared of anything in my life, but here I am at day 11. I even have suboxone, methadone, and poppy pods around the house. Havent touched that shit, It feels too good to be ME again. If your on heroin, methadone, suboxone, whatever your on. Taper that shit down, as low as you can go. I went from 100mgs of methadone down to 20mg in 4 months. then switched to 8mgs of suboxone, and over a 6 week period I tapered down to 2mg with little problem.
So if your reading this wondering if you can do it, you fucking can. You have to reach that mental point where living your life as a numbed soul is NOT acceptable anymore. You MUST reach the point where you will do ANYTHING. Mind over matter friends. I hope this thread helps somebody out there.
Peace to you and yours.
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DungenessDank
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480131 - 09/20/10 09:21 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Fuck yeah man. Fuck yeah.
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Inverted
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480135 - 09/20/10 09:26 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Coastin' on a dream nigga!
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Inverted]
#480138 - 09/20/10 09:29 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Inverted said:
Coastin' on a dream nigga!
STRAIGHT COASTIN'! 
new life here I come!
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Tank333
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480148 - 09/20/10 09:41 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Right on dude! that's so awesome!
After having lost two friends to Heroin last summer, I know that shit's bad. I'm glad to hear you're finally clean off it!
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Picklez
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480193 - 09/20/10 11:13 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Did you say you were using clodine when you were WD? I got like 10 of the .1mg. How many were you taking? I have never used this stuff and dosage info on the net seems hard to find
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Picklez]
#480202 - 09/20/10 11:38 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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KillerPicklez said:
Did you say you were using clodine when you were WD? I got like 10 of the .1mg. How many were you taking? I have never used this stuff and dosage info on the net seems hard to find
ya I got .3mg clonodine pills to help with the hot/cold, sweats, and restless legs. half a pill so .15mg was enough to take care of everything. half when you wake up, half when you gota bed. I would just try taking 1 and seeing how you feel. if you need it, take another half. IF you feel Light headed, you need to eat salt to increase your blood pressure. Glad to hear you got some of that stuff man, it made a huge difference for me! Hope your hanging in there! I'm rooting for ya!
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Picklez
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480206 - 09/20/10 11:56 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah, I have everything I need to get clean. I am going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow and trying to get something to help my anxiety
I was an idiot and used today when I was at my buds house watching football
Sucks having to start over 
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Picklez]
#480211 - 09/21/10 12:28 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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KillerPicklez said:
Yeah, I have everything I need to get clean. I am going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow and trying to get something to help my anxiety
I was an idiot and used today when I was at my buds house watching football
Sucks having to start over
ahhh shit man, you gota get to that point man. I cut myself off from EVERY SINGLE FRIEND I HAD. except inverted, because we had a plan to get sober together. Get laid after you been in WD for like 5 or 6 days. that will make you stay clean FOREVER.
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Picklez
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480212 - 09/21/10 12:35 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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I know I fucked up. I got to do better. I am hoping I get some good help tomorrow and even if not. I have these clondine to help me. Enough to get me through the WD's
You are definitely a source of inspiration for me to quit. Ive at least managed to cut my use from using everyday.
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Picklez]
#480213 - 09/21/10 12:44 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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KillerPicklez said:
I know I fucked up. I got to do better. I am hoping I get some good help tomorrow and even if not. I have these clondine to help me. Enough to get me through the WD's
You are definitely a source of inspiration for me to quit. Ive at least managed to cut my use from using everyday.
Ya try and get some benzos from that shrink, I lied to mine and said I have 3-4 bad panic attacks daily that were triggered by nothing and by me thinking of stressful stuff. I dont know if your going to an addiction specialist, but if its just a shrink, just lie and tell them you have never had a drug problem. Also helps if you say somebody in your family has anxiety and takes "klonopin or xanax" and that it works really well for them. Doctors like drugs that work for family members because it usualy means it will work well for you. YOU CAN DO IT MAN. I never thought I could do this shit, but I did. SO YOU CAN. I'm sending you some good positive energy! Fight tooth and nail dude!
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Picklez
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480214 - 09/21/10 12:49 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Thanks for the words. I definitely NEED some benzos. I dont want to take them every day, but I do actually get panic attacks and have real bad social anxiety.
Ive been giving visterol but that shit sucks. Helps for sleeping a little bit
Regardless. I want to be able to say ive been a week clean at this time next week. And I hope you all give me shit and tell me to go tomato face if I fail. Failing isnt an option for me. Everything else is going soo fucking well right now and I cant fuck it up.
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Picklez]
#480249 - 09/21/10 07:31 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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KillerPicklez said:
Thanks for the words. I definitely NEED some benzos. I dont want to take them every day, but I do actually get panic attacks and have real bad social anxiety.
Ive been giving visterol but that shit sucks. Helps for sleeping a little bit
Regardless. I want to be able to say ive been a week clean at this time next week. And I hope you all give me shit and tell me to go tomato face if I fail. Failing isnt an option for me. Everything else is going soo fucking well right now and I cant fuck it up.
Did you have anxiety problems prior to opiate use? Because it really fucks with the part of your brain that causes anxiety, thats why we get so much anxiety when we come off it. But if you had prior anxiety issues you should definitely be given some Benzos for that. Lets see you have that week man! fuck the dope, You really will be high on life when you get sober. Its a trip I tell ya man, its like being reborn. alright man day 1, pound out that week. I feel fucking GREAT today. not bad at all!
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Hendershot
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Lucid]
#480264 - 09/21/10 08:21 AM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Lucid said:
i Its a trip I tell ya man, its like being reborn. alright man day 1, pound out that week. I feel fucking GREAT today. not bad at all!
Way to go Lucid!
Now comes the tricky part.. just remember at this stage in the game the only sure way to win is not to play..
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Lucid
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Re: Day 2 off Suboxone, 4 years in the making.... [Re: Hendershot]
#480322 - 09/21/10 12:22 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Way to go Lucid!
Now comes the tricky part.. just remember at this stage in the game the only sure way to win is not to play..
Yep, Like I said. My house is literally full of opiates. I could get nodding if i WANTED to. Fuck that though, Its crazy how good life is sober. I never, ever would have believed life was this good while I was using. I'm done with that game and its 100% in my mind. Throw a loaded rig in front of me and ill turn that shit down. Mind over matter every time.
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