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Sigma
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Registered: 08/12/10
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How do you look at pot ( & also life).
#469059 - 08/28/10 05:03 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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When ever I look at pot, I don't just see the weed...I see so much more.
Example: Let's say I just bought an ounce of weed, when I see it, I see my own happiness.
I measure the pot not in grams, but in happiness. So, if I have a half of weed, I have 14 grams of happiness. When people try to smoke with me, or for some reason I have to give someone else some pot, it feels like they are stealing my happiness.
It may just be advanced clinical depression, but I just don't know.
I'm only truly happy when I'm high...it is very hard for me to smile or laugh without a buzz. Movies are more lame, life is less interesting, and I just feel horrible in general.
Now about the life part.
I view it as a very tough "test", or "game". Even after waking up, I feel very fatigued. I feel fatigued all day long....my energy and stamina is just shit. The ultimate goal in life for me, is to find true happiness. And of course, a swift and virtually painless death. That is how boring life is to me...I'm actually looking forward to dieing. Will be a beautiful thing when it happens, of course I don't believe in suicide. The day I die will not only be the scariest, but the best day of my life. Everyone fears death...no matter how bold or how strong you are, everyone becomes very frightened when they know death is impending. That is of course why I wish to die very swiftly, so I don't have to be afraid before I leave this existence.
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I'm always just depressed. Weed is just a temporary fix for me...a few hours at best. That is why I wish to die, it feels as though I'm cursed.
The funny thing is, my life is actually pretty easy right now...compared to people in underdeveloped lands. Of course being in America makes a lot of people feel good, because of the prosperity. Even though my life is easy for the moment, and I don't really know what true suffering feels like, I wish to cease to exist.
And that is how I view life and also weed...for the most part.
I know a lot of you just assume I haven't been laid in awhile, or that I'm being stupid about, but no matter how often I try to find happiness, I end up failing miserably. To me, it's not about women, or money...nor drugs or really anything. I'm just looking forward to death. I of course mean to let myself die however it happens, no plans of suicide or anything crazy....
I just wish I could lay down to sleep, then never wake up.
Your views on life and pot?...either one, or both.
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drawde
Registered: 11/15/09
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Re: How do you look at pot ( & also life). [Re: Sigma]
#469073 - 08/28/10 05:43 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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That was quite a post...
The way I see it, we are just kids having one big lesson, so to speak. We are here to mature, to realize, to evolve. Every situation is what it is because its what it needs to be. Maybe right now you need to feel like this, so that someday a higher realization may come. But what do I know...
-------------------- King Koopa said:
The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Shaggy420
Registered: 07/06/10
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Re: How do you look at pot ( & also life). [Re: drawde]
#469078 - 08/28/10 05:52 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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FRACTALife
Rust Fuckin' Cohle
Registered: 03/19/10
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Re: How do you look at pot ( & also life). [Re: Sigma]
#469217 - 08/28/10 10:42 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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The herb reveals you to yourself. The way you view things is your reality. Pot changes reality and reveals reality.
Life is a squiggle, not a struggle. It is just a ride.
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TomCollins
Registered: 10/06/09
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Re: How do you look at pot ( & also life). [Re: Sigma]
#469357 - 08/29/10 12:22 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sigma said: When ever I look at pot, I don't just see the weed...I see so much more.
Example: Let's say I just bought an ounce of weed, when I see it, I see my own happiness.
I measure the pot not in grams, but in happiness. So, if I have a half of weed, I have 14 grams of happiness. When people try to smoke with me, or for some reason I have to give someone else some pot, it feels like they are stealing my happiness.
It may just be advanced clinical depression, but I just don't know.
I'm only truly happy when I'm high...it is very hard for me to smile or laugh without a buzz. Movies are more lame, life is less interesting, and I just feel horrible in general.
I would recommend you stop taking any and all drugs, seek counseling, alter your diet and begin to exercise daily.
If you are never happy when you are sober, then recreational drugs are not for you.
I can understand if people smoke up for the occasional depression, however, what you just described is incredibly unhealthy.
A drug should not be what makes you happy in life. Getting fucked up to be happy is not good.
-------------------- andyistic said:
Ok so let me bring you idiots up to speed.
The admins are tired of this shitfest being made the joke of the weed community on the Internet.
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FRACTALife
Rust Fuckin' Cohle
Registered: 03/19/10
Posts: 6,838
Loc: Carcosa
Last seen: 7 years, 8 months
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Re: How do you look at pot ( & also life). [Re: TomCollins]
#469361 - 08/29/10 12:28 PM (14 years, 2 months ago) |
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Spency said:
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Sigma said: When ever I look at pot, I don't just see the weed...I see so much more.
Example: Let's say I just bought an ounce of weed, when I see it, I see my own happiness.
I measure the pot not in grams, but in happiness. So, if I have a half of weed, I have 14 grams of happiness. When people try to smoke with me, or for some reason I have to give someone else some pot, it feels like they are stealing my happiness.
It may just be advanced clinical depression, but I just don't know.
I'm only truly happy when I'm high...it is very hard for me to smile or laugh without a buzz. Movies are more lame, life is less interesting, and I just feel horrible in general.
I would recommend you stop taking any and all drugs, seek counseling, alter your diet and begin to exercise daily.
If you are never happy when you are sober, then recreational drugs are not for you.
I can understand if people smoke up for the occasional depression, however, what you just described is incredibly unhealthy.
A drug should not be what makes you happy in life. Getting fucked up to be happy is not good.
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I am just kidding!
I agree, Spency.
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