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goodbye growery 1
#460573 - 08/15/10 10:33 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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if i dont post anymore in the next couple of days, i have probably killed myslef. ive made major fuck ups in my life, and they ae coming back to me and now my life is fucked. and im as miserable as anyone could be. Its all my fault, and i dont think that i could do anything to make this better. no matter how strong i make myself out to be, im the weakest person i know. life
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: CosmicFool]
#460650 - 08/15/10 12:35 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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thankyou guys, your all are reallly a big help. i came hear saying this so maybe some of you would have advice to make it through and ou did. im not sure if it will be the route im going to take just yet. ijust have so much shit going on with me, and life and everything. and after all this and thinking of suicide. i found out myy dad is in the emergency room. which isnt good at all, but i think knowing he needs me right now will keep me from doing anything harmful to myself. im sorry my post is so vauge, its all my fault the things that have been happening. Karma has set its eyes on me now, and i think i must just wait it out. i am on thtat finds life beautiful, but everyone has to see alittle bit of hell sometimes i guess.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Kilroy]
#460696 - 08/15/10 01:18 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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harry, you are harsh with your words. but i understand what your getting at. my life really isnt that bad to where suicide is the option. im sure i can get through all of this. everyone here really is a big help. i know my family would take this very hard, specificly my brother and parents.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: THEBats]
#460854 - 08/15/10 05:37 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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thanks guys, i went over to a friends house and hung out with him. we talked for along time, then had a late lunch with my girlfriend a local pizza place. im doing good, suicidal thoughts arent in my usual thought range. i just have so much going on in my life that is negative. im good as of now, and will try and make everything you guys here on the growery really are a big help
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#460859 - 08/15/10 05:42 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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my doctor said i should, becuase of anxiety before he proscribes me medications. so i might take that advice and see one
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Thebooedocksaint said: With anxiety I can suggest one cure.
i think i might be quiting marijuana do to some health issues. which is horrible. so the herb might not be the best cure for me
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Thebooedocksaint said: With anxiety I can suggest one cure.
i think i might be quiting marijuana do to some health issues. which is horrible. so the herb might not be the best cure for me
If it is about lung problems I can suggest either Vaporizing or a tincture for Sublingual application.
actually its heart problems
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: FRACTALife]
#460966 - 08/15/10 07:56 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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much love to you fractal, and many of the others here that have helped
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: FRACTALife]
#460974 - 08/15/10 07:59 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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im not sure what i have yet though, not even sure if i have them. im getting testing done. had a normal ekg, and idk my holter monitor results yet. i hope im okay though, maybe its stress.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: FRACTALife]
#460981 - 08/15/10 08:07 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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off and on for about 2 weeks straight i had this strange sensation in my chest that would start off mild and grow very intense to where i had to go to the ER. the er said that my chest xrays and vitals were fine. and diagnosed me with anxiety. which i thought was bullshit because ive had anxiety before. i mean this feeling would come out of no where when i was just sitting down relaxing. but it can also come if i think about the feeling sometimes. i havent gotten that feeling for a week. but i have been getting fluttery feelings, and strange heartbeats sometimes.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: FRACTALife]
#460994 - 08/15/10 08:19 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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iStoner said: off and on for about 2 weeks straight i had this strange sensation in my chest that would start off mild and grow very intense to where i had to go to the ER. the er said that my chest xrays and vitals were fine. and diagnosed me with anxiety. which i thought was bullshit because ive had anxiety before. i mean this feeling would come out of no where when i was just sitting down relaxing. but it can also come if i think about the feeling sometimes. i havent gotten that feeling for a week. but i have been getting fluttery feelings, and strange heartbeats sometimes.
Maybe vertigo? Or some crazy Chakra stuff? Was it like vibrations? Ever hear of astral projection? also, what is your answer to the drug question.
idk it could be something weird. i am proscribed vyvanse, but havent took it in a long ass time.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: THEBats]
#461001 - 08/15/10 08:26 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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THEBats said: Hmm what exactly were you prescribed the drug for? That's used in the treatment of ADHD, my little brother is prescribed it atm.
ADHD. it helps alot
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: THEBats]
#461008 - 08/15/10 08:32 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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i stopped early june, and i took it one day in july. so i guess one day in july. i took 40mg
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: THEBats]
#461021 - 08/15/10 08:46 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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a couple of months i was on it. no symtoms exept palitations like twice.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: THEBats]
#461043 - 08/15/10 09:12 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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THEBats said: Either way I'm pretty sure what you experienced was a panic attack.
i mean ive had panic attacks before. and they arent like this. and plus what about the fluttering? could that just be stress or something
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#461053 - 08/15/10 09:19 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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THEBats said: Either way I'm pretty sure what you experienced was a panic attack.
i mean ive had panic attacks before. and they arent like this. and plus what about the fluttering? could that just be stress or something
Panic attack symptoms are sometimes weird man, feeling your heart is a common one.
strange chest feelings = panic attack even with no symtoms?
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#461069 - 08/15/10 09:31 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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maybe it is. but they neveer checked my heart while in the ER. they checked my vitals, and did a chest xray. and everything was normal. exept my heart was alittle bit fast. but its usually alittle fast.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#461076 - 08/15/10 09:36 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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just the normal vital checks they do, just most things. im not sure exactly but they said i was fine.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#461082 - 08/15/10 09:45 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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no, i told my doctor about what i was feeling. he said that i need to see a phycologist before he proscribes me meds. i think ill try it but i talk to people around me often and dont keep feelings bottled up or anything. he also told me to get an EKG to make sure that i wasnt having heart issues.
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Re: goodbye growery [Re: Mr. Kite]
#461097 - 08/15/10 10:14 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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i will set up an appt, soon. i hope this all works out for the better. im glad to here it worked for you and that you dont have to take your meds bro. im not a big fan of syntetic drugs, so medication is not really what i want unless nothing else works
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