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 DungenessDank
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 Re: Last day on Methadone  [Re: Lucid]
#442928 - 07/07/10 10:02 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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You just gotta show the dope who the boss is. Pain is temporary.
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Lucid
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GOOD NEWS! the transiton to suboxone has been fine so far. I was far enough into withdrawl to start taking sub and was giving 24mg and told to come back tomm. I took 8mg and was instructed to take the rest only if I need it. He then tells me he wants me to be on the program for at least 6 months, which I think is a fucking scam to get him money because these fagit ass suboxone doctors only accept cash for some god damn reason. Some piece of shit shrink decides he could make a nice buck if he got a suboxone cert so he does and has no idea wtf he is doing. Ahh thx doc.
Anyway I was like no 6 weeks max, hes like well if you go off that soon your gona relapse... I was like listen here, I went on methadone 2 years ago and cut all ties with that scene. Ive known for awhile that I was ready to quit and I know I'm not going to use again, Ive had it in front of me, and Ive had those shitty Mexican drug dealers call offering free shit if I come back and said FUCK YOU. Oh ya so the sub seems to be working and I got some medicine man x Mr nice guy or some shit from a super awesome friend of mine who even gave it on the front.
So ya im doing it my way, 6 week taper.
/Stoned rant
Edited by Lucid (07/07/10 05:02 PM)
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FRACTALife
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#443167 - 07/07/10 06:51 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey lucid,
I read your whole thread and I got to say to you buddy, I am hear for you!
Think of it as a good situation, you can deal with some pain- look at it as a good experiment of the human condition. You can just try to chill and be happy with the drugs you have and whatever the fuck you want!
Listen yourself over the doctor, the truth is inside.
Suffering is always misleading, it always seems so much worse than it is when you are experiencing. I know from experience. I am healing from my OCD and trying to work on my drug situation.
Keep on with all the good stuff and be happy!
We are all here for each other!
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: FRACTALife]
#443172 - 07/07/10 07:00 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
FRACTALife said:
Hey lucid,
I read your whole thread and I got to say to you buddy, I am hear for you!
Think of it as a good situation, you can deal with some pain- look at it as a good experiment of the human condition. You can just try to chill and be happy with the drugs you have and whatever the fuck you want!
Listen yourself over the doctor, the truth is inside.
Suffering is always misleading, it always seems so much worse than it is when you are experiencing. I know from experience. I am healing from my OCD and trying to work on my drug situation.
Keep on with all the good stuff and be happy!
We are all here for each other!
Hell ya, thx friend. Hope everything turns out awesome for you as well. And I really like the smaller community that is the growery, Its like a big group hostel or something. even if it is only on the net.
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DieselB
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: FRACTALife]
#443229 - 07/07/10 09:34 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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"Suffering is always misleading, it always seems so much worse than it is when you are experiencing."
No offense Fracta, but thats nonsense when it comes to addiction. Take it from somebody that has suffered delerium tremens more than once, when you are suffering from that affliction, it is most definitely as bad as it seems, and worse. It's impossible to get a grasp on this until you experience it, and you should do everything in your power to never have to..
Lucid, hang in there, man, you're doin' a great job. I know its fucking tough, dude.. Really tough.
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FRACTALife
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: DieselB]
#443258 - 07/07/10 10:17 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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DieselB said:
"Suffering is always misleading, it always seems so much worse than it is when you are experiencing."
No offense Fracta, but thats nonsense when it comes to addiction. Take it from somebody that has suffered delerium tremens more than once, when you are suffering from that affliction, it is most definitely as bad as it seems, and worse. It's impossible to get a grasp on this until you experience it, and you should do everything in your power to never have to..
Lucid, hang in there, man, you're doin' a great job. I know its fucking tough, dude.. Really tough.
I think you misunderstood me. For instance, if see someone worrying about a job or something, you might say- "He shouldn't be worrying, it will soon pass... life is just a grand illusion" but when you are actuall the jobless one it is much harder to shrug it off.
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: FRACTALife]
#443264 - 07/07/10 10:37 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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OOOh, I got ya. I had a feeling I was misunderstanding something, sorry about that.
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FRACTALife
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: DieselB]
#443265 - 07/07/10 10:40 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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DieselB said:
OOOh, I got ya. I had a feeling I was misunderstanding something, sorry about that.
it's all good dude 
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: FRACTALife]
#443332 - 07/08/10 08:42 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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good morning lucid. I hope all is going well so far today. Keep up the good work and remember your friends are all behind you in this.
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We are human beings first everything else is second
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81renaissance
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#443419 - 07/08/10 11:30 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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This thread 
Growery
Lucid: Keep it up brother, you got a lot of good vibes keeping your demons at bay. 
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BlueBerry_Swisher said:I want French fries. No, I want a penis French. Thank you. I'm so excited. I can not contain myself. Now I eat chocolate. It is so good. I'm trying to rub it all over myself. And then lick. Now I need a hot shower. The end.
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The growery literally had more influence on me quitting than any external stimuli in my real life... 
I was able to talk about my addiction here without feeling judged, and the support I received was more than enough to make me feel cared for and not-so-worthless. It really picked me up and made me begin to love myself again (low self esteem).
Good work man, I know it's tough but just keep thinking about our outdoor crop and you should go to your happy place...
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Inverted]
#443465 - 07/08/10 12:42 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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I remember what it was like to quit meth and coke and I have hope for anyone trying to kick nasty shit and will support those people as well. Never give up never surrender my friend.
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#444841 - 07/11/10 09:22 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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After I quit I became a jaded drunk. After that I just became jaded. It sure beats being a slave to a drug though.
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Tangerines]
#444851 - 07/11/10 09:30 AM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Tangerines said:
After I quit I became a jaded drunk. After that I just became jaded. It sure beats being a slave to a drug though.
isn`t that the truth.
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#445670 - 07/12/10 09:52 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ya Ive been off the methadone for a week now and the transition to suboxone seems to have gone pretty well considering most people go with 24mg a day for awhile, and I chose to not go past 8mg, But I DEFINITELY feel the methadone leaving my body, and I guess I will for the next 3-4 weeks. Then in about 5 weeks I go off the sub and hope for the best. But since I crashed my rents car I'm of course not allowed to ever drive their cars again. Which fucking sucks because I live in the middle of nowhere and Inverted doesn't have his own car either....Sitting at home alone all day is depressing.
Feeling very depressed these days, nothing makes me happy. I do a 30 minute, 8 mile ride on my exercise cycle every morning and that seemed to help at first but I think as more of the methadone leaves me I'm feeling more and more symptoms and depression is a big one. I cant even play video games, watch TV/movies...non of the shit makes me happy even if I'm super baked! I'm just hoping this part of kicking ends soon...
Edited by Lucid (07/12/10 09:55 PM)
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#446028 - 07/13/10 06:00 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Lucid- why not get a real bike. Solves many of your probs.
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FRACTALife
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#446063 - 07/13/10 07:04 PM (14 years, 4 months ago) |
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Feel better man.
Maybe bike more places should be good for you and will replace a car.
Things will get better!
Be happy...
Try some shrooms maybe or some DMT to break your habits.
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