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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Harlz]
#442319 - 07/06/10 11:12 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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good luck with kicking the methadone and hope you can stay off of it my friend. I know it is very hard to kick certain drugs and I will keep you in my thoughts and send you good happy vibes to help with any notions that you might get to go back. Peace and strength be with you my friend. You can do it
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volcomstoner
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442433 - 07/06/10 01:43 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Good luck Lucid on getting sober. You made it this far, soon you will look back on it and feel so good about yourself
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Vas donc jouer dans le traffic
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ltd
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442438 - 07/06/10 01:48 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Never give up.
The grass is MUCH greener on the other side.
I know all too well.
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: ltd]
#442480 - 07/06/10 03:37 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well I'm doing alot better than I thought I would be at this point. I ate that kpin and it made me pass out for a few hours which was nice. But my legs are hurting to the core...like I have bone cancer or some shit, stupid fucking drug. They need to abolish methadone program with suboxone around. well around 19 hours to go....I can do it...I can do it.
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: ltd]
#442481 - 07/06/10 03:38 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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ltd said: Never give up.
The grass is MUCH greener on the other side.
I know all too well.
Dude how the fuck did you get 40k on curveball? level 8 is fucking impossible.
And thanks for the good vibes Kilroy, every little bit helps!
Edited by Lucid (07/06/10 03:41 PM)
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SmOakland
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442551 - 07/06/10 06:06 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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you are lucky you have inverted there to deck you in the face if you switch back to methadone/heroin.
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: SmOakland]
#442597 - 07/06/10 07:01 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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SmOakland said: you are lucky you have inverted there to deck you in the face if you switch back to methadone/heroin.
agreed Hey inverted you up for the task lol jk. just remember it will get easier as time goes by no matter what you might think it will get better I promise it will
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#442608 - 07/06/10 07:09 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Speaking of inverted. Hes fucking MIA. Havent been able to reach him all day, he must have got a job somewhere doing something.
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#442611 - 07/06/10 07:12 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Good luck, mang. Keep up with the exercise. That will probably help a lot.
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Don King]
#442612 - 07/06/10 07:15 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Don King said: Good luck, mang. Keep up with the exercise. That will probably help a lot.
he`s right it will help keep mind off of things and if you are like me it could not hurt the health aspect of it either
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We are human beings first everything else is second
You can not hold anything I post against me for I am delusional
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442617 - 07/06/10 07:16 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't know if this song will help at all, but I feel a very strong need to post it.
-------------------- Of course it's happening inside your head.
Why should that mean it isn't real?
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: RasJeph]
#442624 - 07/06/10 07:24 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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SCREECHING WEASEL FOR LIFE!
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#442628 - 07/06/10 07:27 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Kilroy said:
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Don King said: Good luck, mang. Keep up with the exercise. That will probably help a lot.
he`s right it will help keep mind off of things and if you are like me it could not hurt the health aspect of it either
Yes exercise is a huge part of recovery, when you start abusing opiates your brain literally stops producing its own natural pain killers called endorphins. This is why the withdrawl for opiates are so bad, we have no endorphins in your brain, exercise kick starts the endorphin production, this is what is commonly refereed to as the "runners high". So yes, Im doing 3, 15 minute workouts on an Exercycle 3 times a day. about 3.5 miles per time. I'm feeling those good vibes, keep that shit coming!
Here is some technical shit somebody posted awhile back.
β-endorphin is released into blood from the pituitary gland and into the spinal cord and brain from hypothalamic neurons. The β-endorphin that is released into the blood cannot enter the brain in large quantities because of the blood-brain barrier so the physiological importance of the β-endorphin that can be measured in the blood is far from clear. β-endorphin is a cleavage product of pro-opiomelanocortin (POMC) which is also the precursor hormone for adrenocorticotrophic hormone (ACTH). The behavioural effects of β-endorphin are exerted by its actions in the brain and spinal cord, and probably the hypothalamic neurons are the major source of β-endorphin at these sites. In situations where the level of ACTH is increased (e.g. Cushing’s Syndrome), the level of endorphins also increases slightly.
β-endorphin has the highest affinity for the μ1 opioid receptor, slightly lower affinity for the μ2 and δ opioid receptors and low affinity for the κ1 opioid receptors. μ opioid receptors are the main receptor through which morphine acts. Classically, μ opioid receptors are presynaptic, and inhibit neurotransmitter release; through this mechanism, they inhibit the release of the inhibitory neurotransmitter GABA, and disinhibit the dopamine pathways, causing more dopamine to be released. By hijacking this process, exogenous opioids cause inappropriate dopamine release, and lead to aberrant synaptic plasticity, which causes addiction. Opioid receptors have many other and more important roles in the brain and periphery however, modulating pain, cardiac, gastric and vascular function as well as possibly panic and satiation, and receptors are often found at postsynaptic locations as well as presynaptically.
Edited by Lucid (07/06/10 07:36 PM)
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SmOakland
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442643 - 07/06/10 07:50 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I like screeching weasel too. This is not so good but:
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Lucid
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: SmOakland]
#442676 - 07/06/10 08:27 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Not bad, music is like a godsend right now. come on dopamine release!
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442877 - 07/07/10 07:01 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Good morning lucid. It is going to be okay today my friend and you can make it through it, I know you can and so do your friends here as well. Still sending you good happy vibes and remember this to shall pass(the bad parts that is). All those bad thought and feelings that creep into your head are just that in your head. Keep up the great work my friend and peace unto you and yours.
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Kilroy]
#442899 - 07/07/10 09:15 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Kilroy said: Good morning lucid. It is going to be okay today my friend and you can make it through it, I know you can and so do your friends here as well. Still sending you good happy vibes and remember this to shall pass(the bad parts that is). All those bad thought and feelings that creep into your head are just that in your head. Keep up the great work my friend and peace unto you and yours.
Many thanks friend, I just got done spending about 3 hours in the fetal position in the shower...I fell asleep last night and woke up in a panic attack and kinda freaked out bounced off the walls and decided I needed to be in the shower....I dunno, being in the shower has this weird ability to make me feel normal...but after 3 hours my core temp gets soooo hot I just had to get the fuck out I was like dieing of thirst. Well its 10am, I got my appointment at noon. Ive been reading all sorts of different shit about how long your suppose to wait before you get swith to sub... some say 24 hours, some say 96... official website says 48-96 I'm pretty confident I'm in withdrawl enough. I dunno fuck
when I get to my appointment it will be 53 hours since my last dose of methadone. Which isn't really saying shit with the long half-life of Meth-a-fuck-yer-life-'done. Well I feel pretty shitty, but I know I'm just getting a taste of what I could be feeling, but I expected to be in a lot worse shape than this right now. Last time I tried to kick I couldn't sit in front of a computer for 2 seconds lets alone type a sentence. Meow, must be those heady vibes I'm catchin'. Thanks all.
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442903 - 07/07/10 09:20 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Kilroy
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442915 - 07/07/10 09:44 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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do not dwell on what it might be like, this is just one of those things that will work against your recovery. just one day at a time(i know you have heard all of this before) but if you keep thinking it is going to get worse then you are just hurting your self and creating more anxiety to deal with. work out some more and remember to breath deeply and just let your body melt into relaxation. find a calm peaceful place in your mind(i use a place in the middle of the woods I used to go as a kid) and let your sense go there too. I can hear the breeze, the water of the river next to it, the sound of birds and insects moving about in their daily care free lives. the smells of the grass and trees. you will make it you will make it you will make it, it will get better I promise it will get better just stick out this part and it will get better
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Re: Last day on Methadone [Re: Lucid]
#442925 - 07/07/10 09:56 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I'm Just worried the doc is going to tell me im not in withdrawl enough. and that I need to wait another 24 hours, and another 24 hours so the point where you get the worst withdrawls. I know this is all negative thinking and im probably manifesting my own fears here. ok, from what ive read and how I feel, I think I should be ok. I can do and will do this. There really is no 2nd or 3rd chance after this, I fail here and Im living under a bridge. Parents have put up with me so much longer than they should have.
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